[At that, Keith scrubs at his forehead, breathing out.]
... to be honest at first I didn't wanna know. I was having a hard time wrapping my mind around the whole... being here before and not remembering a damn thing about it, y'know? Like what time spent here even means. What we're even doing here. Then you guys were all from the future and had all these memories I don't have and...
[He swallows, looking away.]
And you guys have been here for a long time. Longer than I've even known you back in our world. I didn't know how to act around any of you. Maybe I still don't. [Read: he definitely doesn't.] And it's like Lance keeps saying [A beat.] ...or used to keep saying, I don't even know what tense I should be using anymore.... I'm the lone wolf.
[A brief lapse into silence and then:]
I don't know where I'm going with that. Point is, I asked Shiro and he told me nothing serious happens so I figured I could ask when I'd figured out how I even fit in here. That's the reason I didn't ask for details. But it didn't even cross my mind that you guys had left Shiro out of this or that you'd hide something this big.
[He breathes out heavily. looking back up at Pidge to finally look her in the eye again.]
Look. I get why you didn't want to tell me right away. Not like there's anything I can do to stop any of this from happening when I get back. I know I won't remember. [And oh how bitter he sounds about that.] And I'm sorry. I'm sorry that I apparently didn't give a rat's ass about you guys before. But we're a team now, right? Friends, supposedly? I want to know.
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Date: 2019-08-19 02:57 am (UTC)... to be honest at first I didn't wanna know. I was having a hard time wrapping my mind around the whole... being here before and not remembering a damn thing about it, y'know? Like what time spent here even means. What we're even doing here. Then you guys were all from the future and had all these memories I don't have and...
[He swallows, looking away.]
And you guys have been here for a long time. Longer than I've even known you back in our world. I didn't know how to act around any of you. Maybe I still don't. [Read: he definitely doesn't.] And it's like Lance keeps saying [A beat.] ...or used to keep saying, I don't even know what tense I should be using anymore.... I'm the lone wolf.
[A brief lapse into silence and then:]
I don't know where I'm going with that. Point is, I asked Shiro and he told me nothing serious happens so I figured I could ask when I'd figured out how I even fit in here. That's the reason I didn't ask for details. But it didn't even cross my mind that you guys had left Shiro out of this or that you'd hide something this big.
[He breathes out heavily. looking back up at Pidge to finally look her in the eye again.]
Look. I get why you didn't want to tell me right away. Not like there's anything I can do to stop any of this from happening when I get back. I know I won't remember. [And oh how bitter he sounds about that.] And I'm sorry. I'm sorry that I apparently didn't give a rat's ass about you guys before. But we're a team now, right? Friends, supposedly? I want to know.